It was inevitable...

...that I would do a Mother's Day post.

This will be my first Mother's Day as a mother. While I am still not "technically" Pie's mother, she is 100% my daughter. I have no idea what to expect from the day. I seem to have it in my mind that it will be transformative somehow. That it will be some badge of honor, some moment that will help dispel any lingering worry I have about the adoption. But I think it will likely be just another Sunday.

I've been thinking a lot about what kind of mother I want to be. For so many years having a child was such an abstract idea, such an impossible dream that I didn't really focus on the details of mothering. So during some of our late night conversations lately, I've been telling Pie what I'm thinking about that. Here's what I've come up with so far. I want Pie to think of me as a mother who is:

1. unconditionally loving
2. generous
3. selfless
4. fun to be with
5. trustworthy
6. worth looking up to
7. funny
8. supportive
9. brave
10. smart
11. protective, but not smothering
12. encouraging
13. someone who is madly in love with her father
14. wise
15. the safest place in her world

All of these things, by the way, describe my mother perfectly. She is an amazing example of what mothering can be. So Happy (almost) Mother's Day to one and all. I hope that there will be as much love in your house on that day as there will be in mine.

*Me and Pie*