Unofficial Mom: PYHO {Wanting}

April 27, 2011

PYHO {Wanting}

Life has left me wanting lately. Wanting more than I can really process. Wanting more than, in all honesty, I think I should or can have...

Wanting to do something I love every day instead of something that I have to do to supports us.

Wanting to know exactly what that would be.

Wanting the opportunity to find out.

Wanting my stupid body to work like it's supposed to.

Wanting to feel victorious over my weight issues instead of always, always defeated.

Wanting to know what it's like to have control over the size of my family.

Wanting to know what it feels like to have a baby nestled safely inside me.

Wanting more time with my sweet girl.

Wanting to be there with her for every spin, every jump, every giggle.

Wanting to be there with her to kiss every boo-boo all better, to soothe every upset.

Wanting not to feel so exhausted and beaten down all the time.

Wanting desperately to take away the heartache that a dear blog friend is dealing with due to a recent, terrible loss.

Wanting to be closer so I could offer her and her family more than just moral support. (xoxox J, J & I)

Wanting to feel joyful and passionate about my life instead of resigned to trudge through another day.

And there's so much more. So much more that I want, that I long for, that I dream and think and wish for. I am hating that my life is primarily wanting with wonderful moments of contentment thrown in. It should be the other way around. And I feel so ungrateful to want so much when I have so much already. I have more than so many people and I cherish it all, but...there's always that damn wanting.

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Jackie · 726 weeks ago

Wouldn't it be nice if life came with a magic wand? :)

...and thank you for thinking of our family, Sara. You are so sweet.

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Emily · 726 weeks ago

I feel you. With the some exceptions I feel as though I could have written bits and pieces of this post myself. I guess the only good thing is knowing no matter how lonely that the wanting may leave us feeling, you aren't. hugs and hugs.

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Swistle · 726 weeks ago

I had a dream about you last night. I dreamed that Pie's parents were expecting again, and had come to you DISTRAUGHT, saying they felt so stupid that they were in the same situation a second time but was there ANY WAY you'd be willing to take Pie's little brother or sister too? I woke up and was very sad that it was a dream.

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Kim · 726 weeks ago

I think we all can relate to this post. I always find that blogging helps a little with realizing all that there is to be grateful for. Hopefully your friend knows how much you care.

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Michelle Pixie · 726 weeks ago

I wish you had all you desired so that you didn't have this wanting looming in the background. I think we all go through these moments in our lives. Hugs to you my friend!

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SAM 83p · 726 weeks ago

I wish I could give you all you "want" and make all your dreams come true. I think it's a natural part of human nature to always be wanting. It's what drives us to do better.

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ifmomsaysok 60p · 726 weeks ago

You're not alone. That you are still wanting says you're not giving up. You will find your passion and contentment.

(dropping by from PYHO)

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Shell · 726 weeks ago

Oh girl, it sounds like you need a break. *hugs*

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Tiffany · 726 weeks ago

It must be that time of the year. I have been feeling pretty un contented myself. (I'm not sure if that is a word. But not content is what I mean). I know I should be thankful for what I do have and not want, but....
Thanks for sharing.