I've been debating about this for awhile...
Do I keep blogging as if nothing is going on at home? Do I lie by omission? Or do I become completely vulnerable...do I share the not so rainbows and unicorns stuff?
We are teetering on the edge. The next year will likely be the hardest we've ever had to face. Beyond the whole going blind/mounting legal bills that we can't pay thing, we are facing major changes.
In December I will leave a job I'll have had full-time for 13+ years, and part-time for another 10 or so years before that. I will leave that job to do my student teaching. It is the most exhilarating and terrifying thing. I'll be finishing my master's and finally moving into a career that I love. I cannot wait to spend my days in the classroom. However...I will not be getting paid. From January through August (assuming I get hired right away) I will not have a salary. Nothing. And I am currently the bread-winner.
Husband is starting a business to replace my income and still be able to be a stay at home dad to Pie. I have absolutely no doubt that he will be successful. My doubt lies in whether or not it will be quickly enough.
We have no sense of what this year holds other than hardship, sacrifice, and struggle. We don't know how we will survive. We don't know if we'll be able to pay our bills, keep our house, do all the things for Pie that we want. And frankly, if you'll pardon the language, that scares the shit out of me.
So there it is. We are facing absolute uncertainty. But I am trying as hard as I can to believe that we will come out the other side all the better for it. If we can just make it through...